Hi, I’m Jim. I’m on the “spectrum” with some mild autism that expresses itself in craving routines and time alone, as well as general quirkiness. When my daily rituals are disrupted, I feel all nervous and jittery.
My work week has been thrown out of routine by watching sick granddaughters. The youngest is still home today. (I love, love, love them, and I was able to get a lot of work done since my laptop is my office. It is such a privilege to be an important part of their lives.)
Plus, this morning, I fasted for routine blood tests, so I didn’t get my ritualistic breakfast sandwich and dark chocolate.
Then I learned that a very important person in my ministerial life—Robert McIntyre—died, and I want to be at his funeral, but that throws my Friday completely out of whack.
Then Faith invited me to go with her to IKEA this Saturday on a dad/daughter date. (I love. love, love hanging out with my oldest, but that also throws off my weekend routine.)
And next week is the Blue Lake Retreat, and I’m already stressing about air travel and being with people 16 hours a day. (I love, love, love the retreat and I love, love, love the people!)
Ninety percent of you, you’re thinking, “I always knew Jim wasn’t right in the head!” But for those of you with ASD or clinical depression or ADD or [fill in the blank], you know that struggle is real—albeit completely irrational. And so, I am feeling all anxious and twitchy.
Thanks for your prayers. And for those of you that struggle with mental health issues, I can pray for you with great empathy. (Click for hopeful and helpful articles.)
Most of the time, I am grateful for this thorn in the brain. God promises and the apostle Paul affirms:
“My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me” (2 Corinthians 12:9-10).
So, I’m looking forward to the weekend and the retreat. I’m dreading the weekend and the retreat. That’s my life!
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