Why I am no longer seeking God’s will

Open doors
One of my favorite talks and posts is God’s will is not lost—for those trying to find it. The premise is based on Proverbs 3:5-6:

      Trust in the Lord with all your heart
      And do not lean on your own understanding.
      In all your ways acknowledge Him,
      And He will make your paths straight (NASB).

My point is that “God’s will” is not some mystery we must try to solve nor even a specific path we must follow. It is simply 1) trusting God with all our hearts, 2) not leaning on our own understanding, and then 3) acknowledging (yada, to know intimately) him.

However—sadly—I have eagerly sought to know what God had planned for me tomorrow and five years from now. (Everyone, I’m told, needs a mission statement and a five-year plan.)

And, so, I had planned to spend yesterday’s “pray day” to “be still” and attempt to sense what God has for my future. Should I keep working on books and focus on articles which have a much wider audience? And to discern what is my future in speaking. Now that I’m no longer an acquiring editor of books and articles, my speaking at conferences has dropped to about one-third of what it once was. Is there something entirely different out there for me?

Then I read the August 5 entry from Oswald Chambers’ My Utmost for His Highest:

      What God calls us to cannot be definitely stated, because His call is simply to be His friend to accomplish His own purposes.

      If we are in fellowship and oneness with God and recognize that He is taking us into His purposes, then we will no longer strive to find out what His purposes are.

That reminded me of Angela Hunt’s powerful writers’ conference keynote Saturday:

      We are not in control of our lives—or our writing. So, don’t ask, “Where will I be in five years?” We don’t know what surprises God has for us.

So, on August 5, 2019, I James N. Watkins am hereby giving up any and all attempts to plan my life, make career decisions or seek God’s will. I am not going to hustle and promote my writing or speaking. I am done trying to increase my social network and website presence. I am going to attempt simply obediently walk through whatever doors he opens each day. I do not want a purpose of my own. I do not want to know his will, but to simply know him.

Since this decision, I have felt such a huge sense of relief and peace. I’m not responsible for tomorrow. I’m not even responsible for what I do in the next hour. I am simply trying to sense what opportunities God is opening right now—this moment. What freedom!

Today, it seems God is opening the door to write this post and visit a friend who is grounded with severe neck pain—even though I have a major magazine assignment due August 15. He seems to be saying, Don’t worry about that assignment today. Other than that, I have no clue what today holds.

For a goal-driven, Type A control freak this is a major shift, but so far, I like it. And I’ll let you know how it goes.

Wishing you a great present moment!

Copyright © 2019 James N. Watkins

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